Bid farewell to uncertainty.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Chocolates&Candybars at: 9:40 PM

Monday, November 23, 2009

I kissed the lips of an angel.

Endless Possibilities.

Thank you for trying your very best to show me your love. I appreciate every single time you text and i savour every moment with you. As i wait, i dug in deeper affection for you. Perhaps, absence does make the heart grow fonder. Unfortunately, i realised you're not who you said you were. You're not the person i imagined. I know expectations and perceptions are to be depleted even before i met you, but girls just can't help it. We just dream too much. However much my friends told me to leave, i just can't bear to let you go. It's time for me to make my own decisions and list down all the possibilities. But of course to me, what matters most, is still you and your comfort. So ... should i stay or should i go? (Girls are indecisive, at least, i am.)

I need that small tinge of light to lead me to my destiny, just a little sparkle will do. I do realise that i'm just beginning to enter the real world, where nobody actually cares. Indeed, i am afraid, but risks and challenges are, in fact, part and parcel of life. Why not take my chances, what do i have to lose? I know i can gain it all back - either easy or the hard way. Love and life just have to cling to each other, whether or not you can juggle the two. Apparently, all of us blame it on time, when in fact, it's just us, not playing our part.

How can you possibly blame the rain when you slip and fall on a muddy patch of grass?
You should've walked on a pathway instead (or not wear frictionless shoes/slippers).

Come to think of it, we all whine about little flaws of nature - when it's just doing its job.

Don't deny it, y'all ever had that typical thought, even if it was for a split second.

Love you souls, xoxo Double xo.

Chocolates&Candybars at: 11:19 PM

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Should i get more frequent night air, getting high, maybe my only choice.
(Y) No squeaky voice, just plain paper and marker.

I can't go any further than this, I want you so bad, it's my only wish~

Eh? But how to meet you halfway?

Chocolates&Candybars at: 1:03 AM

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Petal after petal.

The seasons brought cold into me.

It's not thrilling any longer. It's not going to be just another new lifestyle. It's just never going to be the same. But i guess it's time to get away from my past and continue with life. To get away and socialise. The words i've been saying under 'Never will i...' are infact coming true. Should i realise my mistakes, life would be, so much more meaningful.

Honey, friends with benefits don't bring you any where close to what love is. It's pulls you deeper to heartache and guilt. So why dare try? Acquire the ability to love yourself before you start loving others. That's one thing i have to work on. Even the personality test agreed. I've been smiling so much, i didn't know whether or not i was really sincere. Somethings are meant to be reflected and judged, not blindly agreed. Rather, now what do i do? Agree or disagree? More thought-suction sessions. I've been in so much trouble and i have so much work to do. Now this? Seriously, it's stressful. Even chocolate doesn't keep me happy - ironic much.

Well, i have to take it positively then. Like, a time for me to start anew. From scratch, from dirt and from zilch. Hope this time, i really won't regret this mistake. Plus, i hope mum changes her mind about this, it's great for her of course, but not for me. Then again, what's great for her should be best for me. Or is it ... ? Obviously, we have to pick one of the choices. It's okay, we'll settle this sooner or later. Apparently, school has been much of a getaway. Still think it's better, with assignments piling up, i barely had time to think things through.

And i got into Marketing, i think i'm appealing for Business though, i had a change of thought.

What do you exactly want from me?

Bye souls, love you~ xoxo Double xo.

Chocolates&Candybars at: 8:16 PM

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I would corner you.

I finally build up the courage to say sorry yesterday. I didn't know why, but i felt the guilt, so deep, it was clogging my veins. Headed home early after school today but going out again later. This week has been hectic. The fact that i had a decent talk with Zurikh (after a million years) on Monday and a lot of cheering up yesterday was, awesome. Hasn't been that bad actually. Just very busy with school, sorry if i haven't been replying in MSN or texts. Plus, yesterday i skipped lecture for Kak Intan because there was an exhibition i had to help her out for. I find it silly that i have to briefly describe a real company. It felt like a mini internship programme for marketing. After a while it went okay, i could communicate with the various capital investors. Hahaha, business minds. Sorry, i shall digress.

Yes Ice, i got your text, we shall sneak in for Jam & Hop. Hahaha! Guys, i've got 2 bars of chocolate right beside me and it's not finishing very soon. That's very random, but don't you think it's unlike me? I'd never save any chocolate for later, i'd gobble it all down. Why is this happening? Hahaha. Nevermind, maybe i'm just, growing up, HAHAHAHA. Emy doesn't grow up, she stays rooted to the squeaky Toys'R'Us floor. Shall blog tomorrow about how boring my life is. Cheers~

xoxo Double xo.

Chocolates&Candybars at: 2:53 PM